How do you want it?
A jockstrap and a smile with my feet in the air
Or something a little . . . darker?
Every choice is a new part to play.
Every role, every wink, every . . . stroke. Is controlled.
In my bedroom, I'm alone.
Everything is ready.
Camera on the tripod, set to record.
I lie back.
My hands slowly trace my collar bones down my chest
Slowly teasing, small electric currents connect the skin.
This body I once hated, now the center of pleasure for me and others.
My fingers inch lower, zoom in.
Slower. Let them wait. Make them want it.
Make them yours.
Here, I have power.
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