This essay tries to problematize the relationship between race and intellectual work. Informed by feminist methodology, it considers the social location and subjectivity of the intellectual and the nature of the work produced. It uses autobiography to explore and reflect on the ways and the extent to which personal history shapes and mediates intellectual production. The essay suggests that the relationship between subjectivity and intellectual work is not inevitable, static, or unidirectional. Instead, it reflects a complex calculus that is also deeply shaped by the historical moment.