This autobiographical preface locates the major questions of the book in my experiences in scenes of pedagogy stretching across farmers markets, bookstores, and academic conferences. Focusing on tarot cards, I explore esoteric practices as forms of what Ann Cvetkovich calls “utopias of ordinary habits,” where aleatory meaning making ties habits to the emergence of and care for worlds. Thinking about tarot between Michelle Tea and Alexander Chee, I ask how esoteric practices are available to queer, feminist, decolonial, and abolitionist politics because they are complex, messy assemblages.